Very long since I last blogged

Its been a long time since I last blogged.Been busy with work in a telco company. Will update all when we go for our anniversary celebration this mth.

Stay tuned !!!

Birthday Eve

Tomorrow is my birthday and yet I told her I don't feel like celebrating. It's the first birthday I spent alone. I told her about it last night and she agreed. I don't know why but I just want to be alone for now. Nevertheless, I will still get her a birthday cake 3 days after mine. I think enough harm is done to this relationship. I believe this will all come to an end real soon.

Feeling lost and gone ?

We had a major quarrel a few days back and I think it harmed out relationship ? I'm not sure whether we can weather this thru together. Baby have told me that the love she had for me is lesser than before. I'm not the one she love the most. What does this mean ? Is it all lies when she told me in the beginning that I'm the one she love the most? Is it we are going to break soon but just hanging to it til something happen again ?

I really don't know is she tired of me already as I don't sense her happiness to see me everytime.We behave like those married couple who have already be with each other for 20 or 30 years.

I also don't know is it she doesn't want to go out with me anymore. For the past few weeks, whenever I plan to go out with her, it will never happen. Watch movie on our anniversary ended up staying at home cause of the "heavy rain". If I go money and car,will this happen ? No. Go buy clothes yesterday but also ended up staying at home cause not enough time. If I got money and car,will this happen ? No.

Yesterday, she told me one of her "primary school" friend wants to meet her as he is enlisting for ns. She asked me whether can she go. I reply her saying," if she want to go then go lor, I wont stop her de". But after that I'm thinking, I plan with her go out so many times she don't want go. Now he ask and she go. What she take me as? But nevertheless, I told myself. If her heart is not with you anymore, no matter how hard you try to keep her with you, she will still not love you. Let's see if she goes out with him when the time comes.

I tried very hard to save the relationship. But in the end, it's her decision whether she want to stay with me a not. I will be happy for her if she found her own happiness with another guy.

I think everything she does is for her family and herself. She may look lian but she's a typical mommy's girl.

The feeling comes back again

I've been having that feeling quite regularly now.I don't know why I just can't help it.Mayb its the signal of coming to an end. Thank for the happy memories for the past few months. I just don't understand why when as a friend I can go into her house and spend almost half a day there and as her so-called"bf",the nearest I went near is only her doorstep.

I feel that her mom is trying t matchmake her and her "ex colleague" whom she feel can give her a better life and treat her better than me otherwise she will not keep asking whether "he" got contact her every other day. I belief "he" will call her on her hp every other day or her house to chat with her. If he's interested in her, and trying to win her heart, he will do that.

Sometimes my 6th sense is quite accurate.I keep having a feeling that she talks to guys and smses with guys and tells me she does'nt do that. Maybe she hides everything from me in order not to make me unhappy. But I will be more angry if I find out myself. So better don't let me catch her red-handed if not I don't know what I will do.

I feel that I know her pattern too well.I think it's a bad thing. Sometimes I feel I'm more a companion then a bf. Should I should act "gong" and just close both of my eyes and let everything past. Let her do what she wants and if she decides to end it then end it.

The way she talk to her friend on the phone brings more smile on her face then when speaking to me spells it all.

Why am I like that ? Is there something wrong with me or this relationship? Is it better to end it or remain like this and suffer ?

Lastly,I only got 1 final sad thing to say..... if at any point of time u think we can't be together anymore or there's no future, pls don't drag any longer.

Gonna 6 mths le

It will be our 6th month together this coming friday. We planned to catch a movie on that day, hope the plan will not be disrupted again. Our relationship has been hot and cold nowadays. Things have slowed down as compared to where we first started.Maybe I should take it easy in everything. I know my Baby loves me a lot, just that her way of expressing is not what I expected. But nevertheless, she is still my Baby and will always be. I love you Baby!!! Decided to post something special and meaningful.( Is how I feel,baby)

难过 是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多
是心理起了作用
Baby想对你说声对不起
用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远
感觉不到 你还在身边
我只能活在期盼 回到过去的世界
坚持到最后一夜这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远 永远在你左手边
TO BE A BETTER MAN !!!

Day of mixed feelings

I accompanied Baby to work as usual. Everything was fine until the late evening. :)

I saw a lady with a pink big framed specs queuing up at MOS burger. I thought to myself,"wa lao, so big confirm ugly de." I turned and told Baby about this. My baby laughed at first but then after she took another look at the lady, she told me,"Neh,she is Dawn Yeoh la." I was stunned and I went further up to take a better view of her face. Indeed she was Dawn Yeoh. I was like OMG ! What shocking turnout it was ! If I never noticed her pink specs,then we won't see her.

After that she and her mom dined at MOS burger and everyone was taking glances at her. (Mayb it's their first time seeing her in real). After that I went to get our dinner. When I came back, I tried to peep to see if she's still at MOS burger but she's not there. I turned towards my Baby's pushcart and I saw Dawn and her mom standing in front of her pushcart enquiring about the nail polishes with Baby.

After that,we ate our dinner and I don't know why my mood suddenly changed. It seriously affected our mood as well and I went to sit at the pushcart,leaving Baby alone at MOS burger.
(Thats how our big quarrel started) I was tired and I decided to take a nap. After I woke up, I turned sideways and faced MOS burger to see people queuing up for their food. Suddenly,the pink big framed specs walked past and looked down on me. I was stunned but I smiled at her and she smiled back. She look so tall and slim in real.

Coming back to the quarrel, I really don't know what's wrong with me. Why do I keep quarrelling with her. I seriously do not know why. Can someone find me the antidote or at least, tell me the reason?

Taking each other for granted

It's been a long time since I last blogged. But I'm really feeling very low now as I put up this post. We've been quarrelling lately. Is it really my fault ? Is it due to my far thinking? Maybe I should not think so much (is it= don't care?) Will it improve the relationship?

Some examples of far thinking bingo :

Baby: Shall we meet earlier today ?
Ans : Need to go home early

(With friends around)
Baby: kk, msg you later
Ans: I go talk to my friends first,free then msg u

Yesterday she suggested coming over to my place on Saturday instead of going to the dinner. Today,she says her mom wants her to rest at home instead of going out.
Tomorrow ?? Maybe going to meet her mom after work ba (can try betting on it)

Maybe to her, if today not meeting then tomorrow lor. If tomorrow not meeting then some other day lo. I don't know how she will feel when she see this. I just know we are really on a thin ice. One wrong move and we are going down.

Or...is she waiting for me to say it out ??

Online store for all

I will be setting up a online store selling mostly ladies' clothes and stuffs. The items will be mostly chosen by my baby and therefore will suit most ladies' style. I will be working on it and hopefully will be ready in a month. I will keep it posted on this blog and will let everyone know when it is ready.

See ya soon !!!

Happy 4 months anniversary !!!

I came back on friday evening from the stupid ICT. After that, I went to look for Baby a while at night to pass her her didi's shirt. It's the longest period of not seeing her. I missed her hugs and kisses so much.

It's our 4th month being together. We went out yesterday for a movie at Iluma. We watched The Land Of the Lost. Though the movie was funny, the storyline was crappy. But think Baby and I had a great laugh. After that, we went for dinner at Mong Kok at Bugis Junction. Here are some of the pics we took.

Baby waiting for her food

As the time goes,she gets boredShe is getting very boredShe decides to take some pictures This is what she's waiting for
This is my baby's horlickAnd this is my hot chocolateY all come le except mineFinally it comes !!!And we are ready to eat !!!I got back my lappy from Baby after being with her for the past week. She told me she didn't log out from the tagged. I tried very hard not to look at her profile but in the end I still looked at her past conversations (sorry baby...) I just wanted to know what she normally say to guys. I was sad but then, those conversations are those when we are not together yet. There are no recent messages, she told me she didn't reply to them (really ? or you delete le...destroy evidence...hehe) But nevertheless, I will still belief her and leave the question marks to myself.

I love you Baby !!!

Leaving Baby for 5 days ( Stupid reservist )

OMG !!! I won't be able to see my baby for 5 days next week. Why must I go for the stupid reservist when I'm so in love with my baby now. I'm already starting to miss her. I can feel my heart aching as I type this post. What can I do but to keep contact with my baby thru the phone. I hope the 5 days will past very soon. Tomorrow will be the last day I see my baby before I go for my reservist. I will treasure every minute and every second with her tomorrow.

I think I will be worried about my baby as I won't be able to accompany her to work anymore. Mayb this will help me to get used to life when I start working.But I will still worry whether will she be bored or did she eat her breakfast,lunch and dinner. Will she be disturbed by unwanted strangers. And when she finish work, will she be going home alone or what. I'm very worried about her and I think she will be worried about me too(Baby, I promise I will take care of myself and you must promise you take of yourself too, k)

I hope time goes faster when I'm in camp and I want to meet my baby on the day I come back. I will miss her like crazy(Baby,am I like a small kid?)

Better Now

Things have changed better for me and my Baby. Yesterday, we went for our latest movie which is the Night At The Museum 2. The cinema was full of kids, think its a movie for family and kids. The kids in front was so over in laughing and the kid behind was like he knew everything. Nevertheless, the movie was funny (Dumb Dumb!!)

This was done by Baby. She kept the tickets of all the movies we watched. ( Pic will be uploaded)

Last week, Baby came over my place and I cooked macaroni for her. I accidentally scalded my finger and Baby pasted the plaster for me. This is how the macaroni and my finger looked.

Baby came over my place again yesterday. I whipped up something for her but it doesn't taste as nice as the last time I made ( Baby, I will let u try again...k)

At night when I reached home, there was nothing for me to eat so I decided to cook whatever I have at home. I managed to come up something like this.

Downfall of the relationship ??

LETTING YOU KNOW OF HOW I'M FEELING

Sometimes I will think negatively of the relationship. I will also sometimes think too much of what is she thinking. Every girl wish to have a good looking bf. If they can't find one, then they will think never mind lor, as long as he treats me well ( Is it like this, baby)

I know I'm not good-looking as all her ex bf-es but I think she don't have to say that to people when they ask about me. I really don't feel good but then I just take a blind eye to it. Shes speaks what's on her mind so thats how she sees me.

As she's 20 this year, she is stil very protected by her family as compared to my other friends whom long gained their freedom when they reached 18. That means no curfew, don't have to report to mom every now and then. I don't wish to comment so much on this as this concerns her family and I'm only a outsider.

Now I'm still studying and not working so whenever I'm free and she's working, I will accompany her to work. And I think now my fate is the same as her ex bf, the only time he get to see her is by sending her to and from work. Now, the only time I get to see her is when she work. But sometimes when she's not working, I also will wish that she have time for me. I just want to hold her in my arms at home and whip up some food for her. That's all I just wish for...but I know I stil have to wait

3 months le !!!

It will be the 3rd month being together with my Baby in 2 days time. I'm so glad that Baby is willing to be with me, based on my current situation now. Things have turned for the better and I think we will last til we are old. (Baby...am I right ?)

It's been a while since I last posted. The latest pictures of my Baby's new hairstyle and the outing at Iluma's Ben 10 cafe will be featured here.

This is what we had that day This is the one we took with our drinkThis is mineThis belongs to Baby Baby is hungry and cant wait to start Baby poking at her steak which is hidden from cam Baby with our ice cream

Seems like Baby is enjoying her ice cream

Its been a while...

What do I mean by its been a while ? Obviously it means that I haven't been blogging for some time le. Now, I will post everything and let everyone know about the progress...beginning with the most recent ones.

Recently, things haven't been smooth for baby and me. We will like show each other face and will like heck care each other. Whats wrong with us? We sat down and talked about it and I ask Baby is it she has lost the freshness in me or our "honeymoon" period is over but she said no. When she said that, I believe she still loves me alot. I will work very hard to bring the smile back to her face and go back to where we first started (Baby...my love for you will never fade) I'm sad that all these things happened to us now although they will come sooner or later but I'm happy that we are able to sit down and talk over nicely. I'm very afraid that Baby might want to end the relationship. Hopefully, things will turn good for us starting from the moment I enter this post.

I had a nightmare last night. It's a very bad nightmare. I really wish the dream won't be true in the future.

Now for some happy moments. We went to dinner at Sakura for our 2nd month anniversary. Though its a simple fare but I hope Baby like the moment spent there. Here are some captured moments for all.

Here is some of what we had for that day

Baby trying out her soup of the day...haha !!

Isn't this dish nicely done

Our seafood hotplate
Thats our dessert !!

Baby digging away at the mango pudding

So sweet of Baby
Baby trying out the pudding herself

Baby being playful with the napkin

All About Baby

I'm also missing my baby now. I don't know what will happen when i go out to work next time. Will we still miss each other badly like now or age will change everything?I plan to save up and open a shop for baby to run (Bee...you think carefully over what you want...k)

Today is the 19th of April, 2 more days to our 2nd month together. I already told baby about the plan for that day. Too bad, I'm jobless and can't bring her out for a better celebration (Bee...I hope you won't mind the simple fare).I need to get a job asap!!!

On Thursday night, Baby and I chatted a while on the phone before sleep. But as I was lying on my bed, my eyes become heavy and started to close. Just at that point of time, Baby woke me up. She asked me what was I saying but I did not remember saying anything. Baby laughed and said that I did say something afterall and said that I was cute(Really ma...bee). I found out what I said from her the next day and I too laughed out loud together with her sis and her. I didn't know I could do something like this.

Well, looking forward to meeting her especially on the Tuesday. How i wish i can get something for her. Pictures can't be taken from my phone le as I've sold my F480 so now have to use Baby's. I will upload the pictures taken on that day (Sure nice nice de...hehe... :P)

A day with mixed feelings

Baby was sick with flu and fever and spent the whole of Friday at home resting. I was also coming down with the virus with a heavy head and aching body. We decided to catch a movie on Sat so that we could meet up with each other. Initially, we thought we are late for the movie again,as usual. We reached Jurong Point at 2.50pm, which is the time the movie supposed to start. We rushed up o the cinema and went to get our tickets and nachos. We headed to the theatre and luckily, we did not miss any part of the movie as it had not started yet. The movie was very nice, from the starting til the end(pictures shown above). Everyone was at the end of their seats with no one munching on their tidbits as the first part was very exciting (Go watch it and you will know...haha). We both think there will be part 5 for this movie as the ending is quite obvious.

After that, we walked abit and went to New York New York for dinner. Baby ate her cabonara,again and I ordered the salmon steak. The dinner was overall ok and we were shocked when the saff started to sing the birthday song as someone was celebrating her birthday there. After that, we decided to take a cab back to Ten Mile Junction as I initially wanted to get my essentials and Baby wanted to see her fan. But I think I'm having a terrible headache and I let my mood affected my feelings. I started to neglect my baby(p.s --> Baby, I'm sorry...I won't let it happen again) Upon reaching Ten Mile Junction, we walked a bit but did not buy anything. As we were heading towards the exit, Baby wanted to get the chinese medical drink for me. But I did something real bad which upsetted her. I said I don't want and I think I kinda showed her a face. I felt so guilty afterwards after seeing her reaction. I tried to pamper her but to no avail. The walk home is about 30 mins but then I felt like we took an hour. What's suppose to be a happy day turns out to be like this. We sms-ed at home and I found out something about our future. I have to treat her real good from now on in order for that to happen.

More pics of my baby

As usual, I accompanied my Baby to work. After that, she accompanied me to Braddell to take my pathetic pay and then we headed to PS. We went to the Starhub customer service to return her digital box before going to 新旺香港茶餐厅 for dinner. I ate the beef hor fun while Baby ate her mee. I took some pics of her there. Doesn't she look so sweet and cute (that's what my friends say...=P)

BiRtH oF ThE bAbY - Part 2

I shall continue with the story as promised earlier. The above picture shows the bear which I did for my baby. There are a few ones but I decided to show the one that I did for her. I got a hard time choosing the clothes as you have to match them. I'm glad she likes it when I gave it to her.

We didn't go out on a date until January. It was with her brother though but then,it's still a date. We went Vivo to get CNY clothes for her brother and then we walked around. We didn't really do much that day. As normal, we will msg and call each other every day without fail. I feel so wierd not hearing her voice before sleep. Maybe I'm too used to it liao...haha.

We went for our first movie on the first day of CNY. The movie was 幸福万岁.The movie was so hilarious that we kept laughing throughout the movie and even after the show. Til now,I still can remember some part of the movie.

Our first valentine spent together came as a surprised as I've asked her whether she will want to go out with me on that day a few weeks before. Maybe I too kiasu le...haha. The first time I ask her,she replied me " see how lo". The second time I asked her, she said "dunno lehx". I was so disheartened that I don't dare to ask her the third time as the day gets nearer. But a week before that, I got her a Coach bag as I knew that she needs a new bag for work. I felt so happy when I turned up outside her door with the bag in the hand and surprised her with it. On the eve of Valentine's day, I was about to ask her the same question when she suddenly asked me" are you going out tomorrow ? " I was a bit shocked and I asked her why. Then she replied "no lah, maybe ask you out for a lunch or dinner loh, just a simple one" I was belated with joy. Although I appear calm,but my heart inside was screaming with joy. I can't believe it that she chose to go out with me when she got so many guy friends who are waiting to date her on that day. On that day, I woke up quite early as I was thinking where to get the flowers. I tried searching for it at Bukit Panjang Plaza but I was told that I can only collect the flowers only at night. In the end, I got the flowers from Lot 1 but I was far from happy as the flowers look so small and pathetic (p.s --->bee, the next bunch of flowers I get for you will definitely be nicer de...hehe. We went Kbox at Suntec and then we headed back home as she was tired. Although it's a short date but I still enjoyed the time spent with her.

Slowly as time goes by, we got closer and closer by each day. She even went to my colleague's bbq session where my friends know her as my "gf" though its unofficial at that time. But I'm still happy that she doesn't mind me introducing her as my "gf". Now, she's my sweetest baby. And I will shower her with lots of love ( baby...I promise ).

BiRtH oF ThE bAbY - Part 1

Birth of the baby ? Why do I named it as that ? Cos I've got a baby now...not as in a infant though...she is my dear "Baby Daphne". I will try to show her pic here if she allows me to...haha.

How it all started ? (Read on to find out yourself...wahaha!!!)


It all began a few months back in Nov last year when I go to know her thru a dating application. It was jus a normal boring session until the application matched me and her and that's where we first chatted. I managed to get her msn as chatting on that stupid application was frustrating and more troublesome. From her display picture in her msn, I thought she might be quite a nice girl like those decent type so I was thinking I should go make friend with her. But then,she was seldom online thus reducing the number of times chatting with her. We are like those people who will only chat when feel bored or no one to chat with at first. After a while, I got to know that she's attached. I was disheartened but then I don't know why I didn't gave up the idea of knowing her which I normally would. Some friends labelled me as a bastard who go disturb other couple.(e.g ---> pei yi jie aka aunty pei yi ... haha)

After some time chatting on msn, I found out abit more about her and her then-bf. But then the most interesting part is that she actually stays the same area as me. I managed to get her number and I begin sms-ing her. The first time we met was on a saturday. She was suppose to go out with her friends and I'm mugging for my exams then. She said she wanted to meet me as the time was early,I was hestitant at first cos I haven really study yet but then I still met her in the end. Then when I was about to leave, she called me and chatted awhile. My cute baby asked me whether I got smoke but then I lie to her saying I don't( p.s --->that is the only time I lied to her), then she also ask whether if I mind that she got a tattoo. Haha...only such a cute girl will ask such a cute question...nevertheless,the meeting was a normal one...chatting and finding out more about each other.

We started to sms every other day and then slowly start to chat on the phone before sleep at night. My friends all said we are so sweet to do that every night. The first present I bought for her was a bear. It was a x'mas gift. Initially, I meant to get her a necklace but then just couldn't get my eyes on something. My friend suggested making a bear for her when we passed by the shop at Vivocity. I think it might be something special as I've never tried it before. But the choosing of the bear and the clothes is also hard as there are so many type of clothes for the bear.(pictures will be uploaded if the owner of the bear allows it...) In the end I chose something which gave the x'mas feel.

This is what we did til the end of last year...I will update the 2nd part of the story which starts from the beginning of thisyear.